Dismiss the dependable;
ill-treated expendable
Your wants hold no bounds,
justified, on what grounds?!
Friend, such a word
can be made so absurd.
Your convenience, world gospel
once your lips hit the bottle..
There’s no worry, no care,
no thought, no prayer..
The hole of consumption again been filled..
But alas, at what cost and whose feelings were killed?
Court jester done jesting,
false chapel done blessing..
Wicked tongue, another victor
used heart left blistered..
mind over matter,
over matter of fact
ignorance is bliss, your willful tact
grievance and despair
you time-zoned
i’m mind-droned
awaken, arise, delusion, despise
decriminalize your bullshit lies
blind to my cries, deaf to my eyes
feet to the skies; will you realize?
I look out and up to this beauty
Blue-red-yellow hued darkness of a skyscape
Are you looking at what I see?
Are you too wondering about me?
The kiss good-bye the sun blows through the sky..
The last embrace of the day’s dreams fading..
As I gaze, I surrender to this fascination, this infatuation..
As I lay and drift, wading through the current of heaven’s ocean,
I’m lost in now, but scarred by past and scared by future..
Each memory resonates power to cry, joy to laugh, tenderness to sigh, pain to die..
Drifting, you’re branded in mind, every trace, from body to face.
Bittersweet permanence, a sweet poisonous delicacy to swallow…
…tomorrow, though, she greets me warm and well, negative exposure to the latter closure..
..and I look again…the skyscape’s gift for the start of the morning’s drift..
Are you seeing what I see?
Are you too wondering about me?
Beauty and madness, beholder of me..
Longing, wishing, hoping, remembering..
Wish, want, need, hopelessly..
No matter the tide change or the direction drifting way…
Skyscape, all that’s left for me…
Drifting…though I’ll never be free..
fast forward
a wish but a hindsight curse
too focused on future
a waste of now
rushing through those
pixels that complete the picture
too busy with what?
world of neglect
do we not realize
soon we will regret?
fast forward
to the end
a race that no one wins
itself, the race,
should be embraced
we rewind in our final time
we reflect…
but reality has already set..
Ripping, tearing,
Convulsing, beating
Out of my chest
Glass shards
metal splinters
Grind my inside
an emotional pulp
a mental disaster
Prosthetic love
Cut through my soul
I’m inside out
This gaping hole
Ugly bliss
Pure sickness
Soundless scream
Lifeless eyes
Loveless heart
Nerveless skin
Cancerous touch
Asphyxiating air
Left limp lungs
Shrieks of pain
Pass in pulse
Body, mind, soul
Deathly rotten
A carcass core
Cut me open
Peel me back
Pressure out
Help me feel
Just can’t heal
Out of tears
Carved my eyes
Spite my life
Fucking lies
Obvious
Failure
Just
Die.
Grateful for the blessings each day and thoroughly appreciative of all that I have. The difficult and tough times in life reinforce these realizations. Embrace life, the people and family you have in it, and the ability to love. Love and appreciate all that you have because nothing lasts forever; there are no guarantees for tomorrow.
